Fallin' Up

"...go to him. Stay with him if you can, but be prepared to bleed...you're so bitter and so sweet. I could drink a case of you...still I'd be on my feet. I'd still be on my feet." I'm still on my feet. I ended my relationship with the father of my children. I remember my life when I first discovered this song by Joni Mitchell. I was younger, childless, and wondering what a life with a family would be like. I was going to school full time and learning what a life of my own felt like.  I started my 30's wondering what my future was going to hold. I didn't imagine children in my future or making my life with someone in it. I was standing on the edge of a new life and not looking back. Wading into the world and contemplating a plunge without looking back...but I did. I met someone and accepted the road that started with a new relationship and the dream of loving someone and creating a life we both kept at arms length. Neither of us knew how to do it or ...

Here are a few highlights of my June. Kids are doing awesome, daughter is trying to walk. Crawling was a little freaky, she was trying to crawl with her bottom in the air and it didn't work out so she went back to crawling normal. My son is still getting his hulk smash on. He loves him some Bruce Banner. I never had this sort of attraction to anything but a couple of songs off of some corny 80's movies but I grew out of it so there is hope for my son. I feel sorry for him when I put these on the cover of his 16th birthday party invites. My other child, my youngest baby is learning how to hold is own and follow direction from our body language and small noises. He is fighting magpies & cows and becoming confident in himself. I think he will always be a baby at heart and keep his temperament and wits about him.

Happy 4th of July!